Wednesday, January 8, 2014
There are times in my life when things run smoothly. I get through the day with a sense of confidence and efficiency. Things fall into place, I'm the master of time management and I go to bed knowing that I've checked off every item on the "To Do" list. This is not one of those times.
This is a kind of perfect storm cycle of responsibility… like a convergence of planets.. where all my projects and promises come due at the same time. Several images come to mind – a frantic juggler, the target in a giant dodgeball tournament, the waitress with a heavy tray stacked with glasses filled to the top.
The "Nein" challenge was a really interesting one for me, because lately I have been thinking (as I do when I'm in one of these all-things-due-now cycles) that I should probably learn to say "No" MORE often. I should simplify my life. Just say NO. But … I know I won't.
By now, I know myself well enough to know I will always take on a little "too much". I'm grateful to have such a problem – too many opportunities to do things I enjoy. A folder full of ideas for the next project and the next; I'll need two lifetimes to do it all. Part of me must love panic and chaos. Why else would I keep creating it for myself? The other part of me loves to conquer it!
So every once in a while I drop a ball. That's no reason to quit juggling.